NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

4:01 AM 12/21/2006
     Christmas is coming on too fast ... I have been pushing myself

past my limits to get things done.
     Mom will have left my home in less than a week ... there's so

much that I had wanted to get done with her ...
      I really did it yesterday.  I was just thinking that, yes, my

injections really have taken effect ... but, I did too much.
      Before 5 pm, I had sought refuge in my lounge chair & heating

pad & several drinks & much pain pills.  I wish that I hadn't run out

of gin.
     My lower back is kinking, catching.  My lower ribs are cramping

... everything hurts terribly.
     And, this day will be another marathon.  I must, must assemble

my bookwork for Social Services & drive over to Iron River before 9

am to get my medical card & food stamps renewed for the next year

... that's the deadline!

7:26 AM 1/28/2007

                         
     OKAY ... I just decided: I'll make a New Year's resolution to

keep up this Backlog ... (get rid of the back log of entries?).
     At the time of my last injections in December ... they  hurt so

horribly that I will seriously consider the intravenous pain killer at

the time of the next ones in mid-February!  The local numbing shots

have made the "facets" bearable ... BUT, NOT THE LAST TIME.  I

asked the doctor if he thought that I'd had an infection or

something that kept the pain killer from working well ... He did say

that there was a high level of inflamation in my back that day.
     I feel as tho I'm seriously overdue for the lumbar facets; my

appointment is several weeks away.  This time, I AM going to go back

 in for the "t'weener" facets in my mid-back ... are those the

thoractic facets?
     Whatever ... I am really miserable.  When I try to do simple

tasks, it doesn't take long to have my back feel terrible.  This is so

discouraging.  That makes me realize that, unlike all my hard-working

life, there is no way that I could take ANY sort of a job to try to

earn a little money to get my finances out of the red.
   One good thing: for the last month or more, the new pain area at

the base of my neck has been going away.  BUT ... maybe that is

the familiar, old situation that "whatever hurts the worst is the one

that I feel" ... eliminate that & a new pain area comes into focus.  I

noticed that for sure when I was in the hospital IMMEDIATELY

after my knee replacement surgery ... IMMEDIATELY is when my old

back problems hit me severely!